Saturday, May 12, 2007
So to Sing
Some of you read my post from January in which I discussed why I don't sing anymore. I have not felt called to join the choir or cantor in my current parish, although when I was in high school I was very involved with the music ministry. Now I'm content to sit in the pew and sing from that vantage point. I also think that just being an average pew sitter has been healthy for me.
This year during RCIA, I happened to mention during one of my talks that I used to sing, and one of our priests happened to be in attendance that day as he was the scheduled catechist. When he took the podium he told the class that he's just learned something new about me; and that we need cantors. He also let me know afterwards that he thinks I should get into it again, and I told him I don't sing anymore. I wouldn't tell him why.
Well, last week I made the mistake of singing a couple lines from a parody in his presence, and he basically ordered me to become a cantor. I initially refused...sort of. But I also realized that perhaps obedience comes into play and perhaps God is asking me to sing again. I had considered long ago whether I should step up, but given my reservations, I offered this question to God as the judge; if He wanted me to sing, then I would have to be invited to do so.
I realized that Father was inviting - nay - ordering me to cantor.
So upon that reflection, I sent him an email and told him that if he really wants me to sing again, I will.
I do have serious reservations about this, partially because I don't have the voice I used to have. But if it's time to offer my voice again for God's glory, then I am willing.
The photo I posted is from college; I was singing "Safe in the Arms of Love" by Martina McBride. I still had a decent voice back then. So have no fear; the above is NOT a liturgical abuse as it did not take place in the context of the Liturgy.
I just pray that, if this cantoring thing does come to fruition, my rusty cords don't cause my fellow Catholics to suffer.