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Friday, October 26, 2007

Decision Made

Thank you to all of you who responded to my previous post.

I have decided that this is not the time to go to Mexico, and no, I'm not a bit disappointed.

There are several reasons:

I have been to the Basilica of Our Lady of Guadalupe twice, which is far more than most people will ever experience in their lives. Additionally, there is NO GUARANTEE we'd get a chance to go to the Basilica, which is in Mexico City, very much out of the way of the wedding we'd be in Mexico to attend. While we would be going to the Cathedral in Puebla, a building built by angelic hands, well, I've been there before, too. And while Puebla is "home" for me, it will still be there after December. And if not, well, that's in God's hands.

Secondly, while my friend needs a travel companion and is willing to pay for me, that doesn't mean she can afford to, and she may find another traveling partner who is also already bound for the wedding. My going or not going is not a deal breaker for her, and she is still discerning what she is going to do.

Thirdly; someone brought up the path to holiness and doing a good for a friend. Well, this friend must make her own decisions and she will, but I must also make my own, and discern what God has already called me to do. Is this a diversion from that path? Yes. Because I will be working on things for class through December 15, plus preparing for Christmas with my family, working on other projects for work, etc., well, this trip comes at the worst possible time.

Fourth, and most important; I do not have peace with the idea of going. All it causes is anxiety, especially in looking at the timeline. Only 1 month to prepare, never mind all that I have to accomplish in relation to school and work within that month.

It is not prudent for me to go. This morning I informed my friend that I simply cannot go, and she of course understands and so is looking into her other options. My decision frees her to do what she needs to do and to look in other places for assistance; if it is God's will that she go, He will indeed get her safely to the wedding.

I love Mexico, and it will always be my second home. I hope to go to the Basilica again one day, but for now I am content to wait for God's time. This trip was not about the Basilica, but provided a possible opportunity only. That is not enough to sacrifice so much for something that may not happen.


Kiwi Nomad 2006 said...

You had still better look for that lost passport though... who knows what other trips might be lurking around a corner for you;-)

Melody said...

If you don't have peace about it, then you are doing the right thing to stay home.

uncle jim said...

Only you could make that discernment.

The most the rest of us could do is to discern what God wanted us to say to you - not answer the question posed.

Ray from MN said...

You're an amazing woman, Adoro!

UltraCrepidarian said...

A good decision. I mostly was concerned that you look at it (as you have!) with your heart and your mind, and I was concerned that a mere coincidence might tip your hand one way or the other! You have used your God-given abilities to make a prudent decision. That's God's will. Well done.


Adrienne said...

Very good decision.

When you have to "talk yourself into something" it usually is not a good thing to be doing. Personal responsibiliy is not practiced too often in today's world. We tend to "do what makes us happy" or "go with our heart".

Just so you know I'm not holding myself up as better --- if I had been you (of course, that would mean I was 20 years younger) I would have gone. I spent a lifetime just bouncing from one bad decision to another.

IronicCatholic said...

Hey Adoro, blog sometime about your experience of the Basilica. I found it more moving than I expected, but also not what I expected (if that made any sense)....

I have to admit, the US Shrine to Our Lady of Guadalupe is near by house (well, 35 miles), and I have not yet part because I wonder how someone could experience what that apparition means outside of Mexico. The context made it all click for me. But then again, that could be just me.